The worst way t love someone is t sit beside them knowing they don't love you back.

Mid Year is coming and I've been studying. Cool eh, I'm so hardworking alr. Haha. But I feel tt this is only temporary! =/ 2.4 tmr, so don't have th mood!

Muhammad Farhan Bin Junid. <3

I hope everything will turn out fine tmr.

Warning: A post w no link or meaning. I'm just gonna type what comes t my head.

Last night was hell. Tersadar 4 times from my sleep cos I dreamt of you. 4 times I dream of you. What is God trying t tell me, I'm seriously lost.

Idk how much longer I can take this, idk how much longer till I really go crazy. Everything is just different without you here. I cannot get you out of my head. Try all I can, a gazillion times still trying, it's your face tt constantly appear. Can't believe I forgot how t breathe for a second when I thought of you. And th pain when I see your face, but no longer with tt sweet smile you used t give me. How much I miss you, and so desperately want t hug you tight. Hurts seeing you without being able t call you mine.

So many things in my heart I just cannot find th right words t say. But I cannot take looking at your face anymore. It just hurts too bad and tears are always flowing every night. Free time means more time t think of you, which I try hard t avoid. I can't seem t smile or laugh. And everybody is asking me t cheer up. But how? Cos I'm only happy when I'm w you.

And you don't noe how much I so desperately miss you. Tt as I'm typing every single word here, knives are stabbing through my heart. Is this what love is suppose t feel like? Cos now I'm afraid, afraid t give my heart t anyone. I'm afraid t love again. Ironically despite my worry of th pain, I still want you. Please come back into my life. I cannot take it anymore. I just really cant.

Excuse my emotions, I'm a Lit student.

Aiseh Awwabin, you are somebody. :D

I feel like crap still, but I really shouldnt. Cos if you don't even bother and don't even care den you are not worth my heart pain, my sadness and my tears. Easier said den done. I still miss you. ):

I don't feel like coming t sch. I don't think I'll be able t see you without breaking down again. My heart hurts, really does.

I am so disgusted by th woman who typed th post below. HAHA. Since when do I let things affect my life. I'm coming t sch tmr, cos I'm gng t study hard and ace my O levels. :D 5 distinctions babyyyy.

I am superwoman. I am somebody.

I'm only gng t focus on th people who matters and forget those who don't. I've awesome friends and awesome family. And I'm gng t make you all proud. Thank You for being thr for me, love you guys.

This morning I woke up really early t th awesome smell of th rain. Makes me feel so much happier. (:

I'm giving school a miss tmr. I don't really have th mood for it right now, don't feel like being around people. Just really want t be alone. But I'll come on Tuesday, I think? See how ah.

I am superwoman. Cannot let things affect me. I miss you.

I love this picture (:

School have been really mundane and Venkat have been chasing me for th countless amount of homework I owe him. Crap. My body and mind hasn't really been in sync, I needa backup but I really have no motivation. Ohwell, I'm getting better though I'm coughing more now. Haven't been eating my medicine and have been eating lotsa sambal and drinking cold drinks and ice cream. Coughing badly my lungs feel choked. Hahahaha! :D

I wish things were just like how they were last time. Simple. And my life seemed t planned out perfectly in front of me. I miss 2009 December. I don't think tt 2010 was a better year. It's only been causing misery so far.

Maths now.